“Why are you so worried about what everyone
thinks? It’s no big deal; you’ve already done it
Derek waits impatiently for Braeden to make up
her mind. She looks down at the floor trying to
“He’s right.” Says
this voice inside. “Who are you kidding. What
makes you any more pure now…what,
waited a while? What’s one more time?”
Braeden straightens her dress with her decision
and looks into Derek’s eyes. “Yeah, your right;
sorry I don’t know why I’m being so difficult
about this.” She says with a slight laugh as she
playfully nudges him.
He laughs in reply and kisses her, pulling her
towards the bedroom. They pass by a mirror and
she sees the reflection of her dress. She had
picked it out just for tonight. She kisses him
back passionately and puts all worries in her
mind to rest. Her thoughts trail off.
“This could be something really good.”
It’s the next morning and Braeden wakes up.
Derek has left. He stops calling her after that
and avoids her at school for the next few weeks.
Soon after she watches in shock as she sees him
kissing another girl in the distance.
That night she goes home and sits against the
edge of her bed. Her vision starts to blur as
she sees the dress hanging in the closet from
that night with him.
She stares out the window into the winter sky.
A Hope for Forever - Michael
Several months had passed and Michael came into
Braeden hoped there would be a future with
him…that they were going to be together in a
forever kind of way. She could tell that in his
mind she was the prize catch; she was flattered
by his attention.
Day after day he expressed how much he wanted
her, how beautiful she was and how she topped
all of the other women he had known in his life.
Finally Braeden gave in and slept with him.
Justin stuck around for a few months, but as the
time passed by it became obvious that sex was
the only piece to their relationship puzzle.
Finally she broke it off with Justin…she wanted
something deeper than just sex.
Braeden couldn’t find the right guy and began to
be convinced that she was destined to live the
life of ‘friends with benefits’.
She came to the conclusion that marriage just
wasn’t in her cards.
Still though, she didn’t want to be seen as
someone who slept around so she held out for a
while. As the months went on the peer pressure
increased. Her college friends began to tell her
she needed to let out
her sexual frustration. She finally gave in with
a guy she had just met.
No matter how many times she had sex, it was
apparent the empty feeling she had inside wasn’t
planning on going away.
Years continued to fly by and due to the advice
of those around her, Braeden made it a practice
to test the waters, to try before buying in
efforts to find Mr. Right.
Her philosophy became: “I’ve lived too long this
way to change now.”
Each time she went through with it in the moment
she felt beautiful and loved; but afterwards
this feeling was always followed by a numb
hollowness throughout her being.
Her intimate gift was never cherished; she
yearned to find her perfect prince who would
kill the vicious cycle and rescue her with his
love; he seemed to be nowhere in sight.